According to McCary, he’s been battling the disorder — an unpredictable, often disabling disease of the central nervous system that disrupts the flow of information within the brain, and between the brain and body – for more than 20 years. “It sent me into like a depression,” McCary said of why he’s been so coy about his battle.
Although the cause of MS is still unknown – researchers believe “the disease is triggered by unidentified environmental factors” in an individual who is generally inclined to respond, says the National MS Society.
“When I first saw of the ailments start to happen, it was like little back spasms at first and it would get stronger and stronger,” McCary revealed of the sickness targeting at least two to three times more women than men, between the ages of 20 and 50. “Once I was about 22, it started going full scale.”
To put “full scale” into perspective, McCary revealed that doctors told him he had a “locked” nerve in his back that could potentially sever and leave him paralyzed. “They were saying that I have a nerve around the sciatica that was locked in place that could sever if I stepped wrong,” he said.
Of course, not all symptoms of MS cause paralysis. Because MS wreaks havoc on the CNS (central nervous system) basic functions including vision, taste, and mobility may be altered.
Unfortunately for McCary, his failing health wasn’t the only area of his life he took a hit. The musician went on to disclose that over time, his illness caused a rift in his relationship with group members, Nathan and Wanya Morris, and Shawn Stockman. In fact, McCary claims his former band mates turned their back on him despite working “300 days out of every year for over 15 years,” once his diagnosis came to light.
“I want to get over the hurt and abandonment that I feel from the group that I’ve been with for so long and gave my life to,” he said. “I want to be able to go in a room with them and not feel like I want to choke them.”
“That’s what I mean by I felt abandoned and it makes me want to choke them,” he added. Though it’s evident that McCary’s admission was difficult to say the least, Vanzant argued that owning his truth was a step in the right direction. “His openness here today shows his willingness to fix his heart,” she said.
Watch a clip of Michael’s revealing clip below.